how i deal with it. in the big picture my mother died the weekend before thanksgiving, a shooting of innocent children in Connecticut, a friend who is in his last month of life from a cancer worn out body, jesus’ birth and the reminder that his very birth was surrounded by a tyranicle king killing, no slaughtering a generation of children in a whole city.
Jesus came to a humanity of sorrow and death. but he came to conquer deaths hold so that all in him can live. we spend a lot of our lives driving Jesus away from our daily living that when we get tired we wonder where he is…..hes’ where we placed him.
i have great regrets so do we all. but it comes down ,,life comes down to our heart. Jesus ,,,, living the gospel to a people hurting,,,,, it comes down to our heart. for some reason writing these thoughts out is easing. walking with my friend in his last weeks talking to him or listening of his joy in Jesus is a catalyst to my own inner joy.
but don’t think i don’t weep at the slightest thought of the Amish children gunned down at Nickel Mines or the girl at columbine or the Connecticut children . it’s all very alive and real and will not shake out of my daily thoughts.