When was the last time someone told you they were proud of you?
At first I so wished that I could think of a time where someone looked me in the eye and said “Joel, I’m proud of you”. At first I just couldn’t remember but what I do remember is the constant need I have of affirmation and wanting to be found as someones pride. Its part of my needing acceptance my NIFJ.
As I thought a bit more in the next second,I remember, all the times my wife says I am her hero,same thing, right? Then I remember my mom who really would say I am proud of you. All I heard at the time was, are you sure you’re doing the right thing? or do this for me. I heard the constant have to help her with something rather than her true feelings, which she did express at other times .
This topic can get a bit confusing for me because of my personality make up with the constant need to please people. And I want acceptance to look a certain way, which is not really right. I do think now that as I see the approach in 4 years of 60 that I would have figured some things out by now. But life is one big learning curve.
But all in all I need to retell my self just how proud the important people in my life are of me.
God is because of what Jesus did. This is hard because i so want to add to it or do something that warrants Gods pride. But the power of the Cross is sufficient for all my needs.
My wife, I am her constant hero, I am always taken by how much she loves me.