A panacea to the psychological mind-warfare that goes on when I cross other personalities in a day. Writing smooths everything out, because I’m throwing myself in my past and analyzing why and how i process the shifty characters in my life at the present.
I can express myself without talking, and that’s like me. Talking is getting hard because I start to say something and it leaves the earth before it gets said. So if I don’t open my mouth it stay to get on the printed page. I’ll be calling my workers and go through all my children’s names before I get to theirs.
I have been quite depressed of late. Stress at work, and coming to grips with how my body is telling me a 56 and 7/8th old man should and shouldn’t move, financial stuff that will not end untill I’m 125 years old and a long slow grey winter’s spring.
Writing makes perspective. When my mind tells me to explore the fantasies it displays, if I am writing these blogs I can get my thoughts out aligned back to reality, and expose fantasy for un reality.
Maybe it just the exercise of pausing in a day to reflect back word and forwards. coupled with yoga I may have no more problems……