a collection of thoughts come with the age. i’m not as wise as i thought id be. there’s songs about turning seventeen but not 60.
burned-out at work and everywhere pretty much, but not really in marriage.burn out is punctuated by hopelessness,anxiety,exhaustion,frustrated and cynicism and increased irritability.
However, concurrent with the apathy and frustration, living within the same mind;a hopeful reality of being rescued, reconciled and presented holy underlines and beats at the worn out trajectory of my thoughts. I started a mens group on fb to weekly read through a book of the bible. colossians 1 is a hopeful display of real people with bad thoughts and actions rescued, reconciled and made holy by Jesus, solely through faith. bad actions and thoughts didn’t miraculously stop they didn’t become cloud surfing harpist, but they where given hope, in the midst of living real lives.
marriage is a life long working out of relationship. Its a display to the world of what i think the church and Christ relationship looks like. messing up, forgiving; steadfast,failing;singing ,crying……loving each other even if only based on vows, when we show our hidden badness in words or action or no words or non action.
exercising if, well, it starts over each morning. a friend is remembering the veterans who end their own lives. 22 each day. so he is doing and posting on fb 22 push ups for 22 days. its a challenge so i’m joining doing 22 push ups each day. walking is about the only consistency. so i get on and off the bus and walk a bit extra.
my 10 year old grandson wants to be the first deaf president:
Hello, my name is Ellis and I’m 10 years old. I’m from Massachusetts and I go to school at The Learning Center. My dream is to be the first male Deaf president of the United States of America for 3 reasons. The first being pollution; on the side of highways there is so much trash. That hurts animals which is really bad. I want the trash to be picked up and areas cleaned up. The second reason is the state of our country is declining because people are being lazy. I want to encourage people to work together to improve the state of our country to make it a better place to live. The third reason is that rich people and poor people are not equal. I want money to be taken from taxes on the rich to be given to poor people so that everyone can live equally.
Now that’s awesome. I want to be his gardener.
I actually think i’m doing what i wanted to do at 10. just not at the same place i dreamed with the same people. growing plants in a general way.!
i’m feeling good about these grand kids and children.