living in grief

Some place i need to be to speak to your ears that cant hear me. your ears hear the heavenly stuff, i only hear tinnitus. A walk in the wild flower preserve of shenk’s ferry suggests a place to talk in-audibly about how its going now that you aren’t here. now that I have a void deeper then the valley of Mertensia. Sitting alone in the watering hole is…

Another friend taken early, propelled my kayak down griefs rapids yet again.

How do you get a best friend ? at 62 now the pool is thin. reconciliation from the Lord of friends is a sure bet. tangible sacraments maintain a reality to the age/ eternity connection.  observation of adult child and mom repairing a rift is a hallelujah moment.

So, thats the back ground beyond the fire wall.

The fore ground is more positive.

There is this objective to complete certain things while i can still move. such as visiting a personal trainer. after last year not being able to move from a herniated disk i’m not just going to go to a gym but be very sure about form in lifting weights and direction on whole body strengthening.

other things include building my own pond, nicer road bike, a box of cigars and a bottle of scotch…

church, living after a broken dream in burn out. its harder to go just beyond knowing i’m secure in faith, to enjoying a congregation. we’ve joined a care group which is probably the saving factor in balancing the bureaucratic inconsistency of how the gospel is demonstrated in a church ideology and balancing the gospel in genuine friendships.


Perennial plant propogator for Creekhill nursery. Over 40 years of experience with lots of plants from foliage, cut flowers, seasonal potted plants, annuals and perennials. A plant geek and nerd, i am

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2 comments on “living in grief
  1. LeeSoyer says:

    Genuine friendship with God and people is what we need to have in this world!

  2. Peggy Griffin says:

    Praying that your heart will heal and that you will be able to experience the hope and comfort provided us in Christ Jesus. Lean hard on Him. So very sorry that you have lost another friend. This is one of the sadder life events we experience. Love you, my friend.

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